Soon, said I will know...

I always set my alarm clock at 6:00 AM but I usually wake up an hour late. The alarm reminds me that I still have an hour to sleep. I really mastered procrastination. I finished Dan Brown's Deception Point last night and after reading two of his other novels, Angels and Demons and Da Vinci Code, I could almost picture how the story will end. I don't own much of new books. I am big fan of classic literature and 80% of the books I own were published during the 50's until the early 80's in the likes of Sherlock Holmes. I've been listening to Smashing Pumpkin's old album and Billy Corgan's line just stuck in my head, "soon, said i will know." I think it has some relevance in my state of mind and heart right now. For some reason, it is comforting.

Wake Up!

There are days when thoughts just flow freely but there are also days that you just can't think of anything to write. Then you start wondering about the days when you always have interesting things to say about your life or always think of things to make it appear a little more interesting. I miss the days. Maybe I blame it on sheer indolence. Or perhaps the succession of busy days makes one's mind inept of lucid thoughts. This, i think is a signal for me to pause amidst the chaos and superficiality of things around; to not let a day pass without seizing it. The words of Goethe seem to give my thoughts a certain direction again.

"What you don't feel, you will not grasp by art,
Unless it wells out of your soul
And with sheer pleasure takes control,
Compelling every listener's heart.
But sit - and sit, and patch and knead,
Cook a ragout, reheat your hashes,
Blow at the sparks and try to breed
A fire out of piles of ashes!